I know the thing to say these days is how crappy 2017 was, and believe me, many parts of it were (and beyond crappy, more like… unbelievable? Is this real life? What is happening?).
But as I continue to reckon with all of that (perhaps a blog post for another day?), I can’t help but be grateful for much of what 2017 brought our family, from a promotion and new opportunities at work for me and Kevin, to plenty of travel, and, yes, the impending arrival of our little nugget.
As I get used to writing ‘2018,’ I’m also trying to think about what this coming year will bring. I don’t think I have one specific resolution or action item in mind this year; instead, I have a few things I’ve been thinking about:
Learning to roll with it. If you’ve ever seen my planner (and you probably haven’t, because I guard it with my life, because I am crazy), you know I like to be prepared. While I do think I do a pretty good job of handling stress and reacting to adversity, I like to know what’s coming, have a plan, and feel in control. With a baby on the way, I know I have to find a way to let that go and get better at just taking life as it comes. This will be tested almost immediately as we learned this week that the baby will be arriving earlier than expected. I am going to be induced at 37-38 weeks (likely sometime between Feb. 21-28) due to my newly-discovered gestational hypertension. I am happy the doctors are taking it seriously and watching me so carefully, because of course all we really care about is a healthy kiddo, but feeling like we just lost 2-3 weeks of preparation is stressful. And not what we planned for! See, I have a lot to learn.
Slowing down. It can be hard to stop and smell the roses in these busy times we live in, and I know for me, life often becomes an exhausting stream of post-it notes, Twitter feeds, and text messages, with little time spent actually stopping to appreciate what goes on in between. You know, the things that actually matter. When the little one gets here, I hope I am able to put down my phone more often and spend time being present in the moments. And then maybe I’ll Instagram them. 🙂
Taking care of myself. I do a pretty good job of eating well and working out, but I know that when things get out of whack, those are often the first to go. If work gets busy, I’ll skip the gym after, and if we’re running somewhere in a hurry, we’ll get fast food. I want to stay on track and not get derailed so easily, because I deserve to take care of myself and make those things a priority. Also, let’s all drink more water!
I am sure there are other things I’ll want to focus on as the year goes on, but for now, I’m going to spend the next 7 or 8 weeks waiting patiently for Baby Copp to get here and just remembering what’s important. I know 2018 is going to be full of changes, but also full of joy. I feel really lucky.